I must say.... m not impressed!!

Hi friends... long time na!... hehe... again all those exams and then i bid my final adieu to the undergraduate college of mine... lot has happened since I last blogged... serious issues... masti times... party times... a real lot... and with wet eyes I left the college... then went home... usual happiness... ( chaar saal ho gaye yaar ab... )... Rite now I m at IIM Ahmadabad for my summers... nd I must say m not very impressed by this place... Its not waht I thot it wud be... a very humble infrastructure... rooms are even worse then BHU's and I was literally frustrated when I went to take a bath in evening around 6:30 and found the water to be so hot that it can even cause a skin burn... ah.... the area outside my dorm closely resembles a semi occupied junkyard... mess was ok... and canteen is gud... grounds are small... Campus ambiance is awesome... specially at night... architecture is good... but there is only brick work.... no cement plaster... forget a paint... architecture is great... with all those arches and circles... really cool... among ma favs come Loui Kahn Plaza or Piazza ( donno...)... nd dorms outer look.... I guess its Italian Architecture... but m not sure... Fitness centre is really gud..... I haven't seen campus life here yet... coz batches are not here yet... One thing... since m from BHU... this campus was like a baby campus for me.... such a small campus... u really dont need any vehicle within the campus... the facilities that are provided to students ( not summer interns...) .. are quite good.. but all in all ... m not very impressed... though I love the dungeon look of the galleries connecting wings... but still ... wat I found is way different from wat I xpected... lets c ... i will be here for a month.. hope it changes the impression... Next time I will surely upload some nice pics that I clicked... One more thing I have never seen so many Cats at one place... Cats all around... dormitories mein... canteen mein... mess mein.... everywhere... I guess thats y they named the entrance examination CAT... hehe..

I have got a dream... my dream is to be free!

Hi all!!... This time m bak after a long time... nd I see people have rated ma blog ... quite a rating... some din't like ma blog.. ( still they keep visitin :D... I can track their zones :) ) and some liked it dearly... and rating has been quite extreme... newayz ... that doesn't matter... wat matters is that I luv ma blog... coz its like a friend to which I can talk.. to which I can crib... nd can cry in real bad times... Newayz... Some time ago I recvd a packet from ma comnpany.. HUL... Sanjib told me that he got something ... I thot if the pkg has reached Kharagpur then it must hav also reached Varanasi... went to our Placement office... God!... packets were all open ... got them... picked the one for ma friend as well... gave it to her.. and called another mate and told him to collect... Well its was some stuff from HR people... It contains two things... a novel called IIM----> Ganjdundwara .... and a DVD of a movie called as "Freedom Writers"... Well initially I had a thot that all this is some time pass stuff... but something from HUL HR ( Rated best in whole Asia) can't be just another time pass stuff... put them aside coz sessionals were on the board.... Last the haan!.. hamesha ke liye finish... Gud hai... picked that stuff yesterday... Started reading novel... OMG... its really hilarious... Rohit ( the narrator)... is quite a treat to read... the satire he made on rural life ... on himself... his stint mate... Its actually a story of two guys from IIM-A... who have been recruited by HUL... after that for their rural stint they were send to ETAH District in UP ( think its a district .. but no real idea..) ... they are sent to Rangpurgaon which is near to Ganjdundwara.... awesome piece to read... The protagonist really had quite a meandering experience... at one point of time he really appreciated the rural life... the closeness to nature... at the same time he sulks around for not having basic amenities... He was the one who don't care about making difference to other people's life... on the other hand Shyam his friend was very much into it... nd blvd that small differences to lives of others ... small hopes... grow eventually... taking shape of big endeavors and demeanors.. The initiative they took has taken shape of a movement now... Read it here. See they made difference to so many lives... and so much more as this movement grows... ( even if novel said that its fiction... whosoever first formulated that idea really deserves kudos... hats off).. I mean see around how many people wanna make difference to other people's lives... Whenever I ask some1 their goal of life... they always say... I wanna be successful .. or like to occupy key position in a MNC.. (This answer was actually ridiculous...the worst I have ever heard )...Neywaz... I would rate the book 3.5/5 ... coz its hilarious... it gives a message ... it inspires... and its truly a tr8...

Next was this movie " Freedom Writers"... I saw the DVD... the casting included Hilary Swank... an academy award winner... cool... lets see then... I loaded the DVD... some gud music... hiphop... nice one... lyrics are "I have got a dream"... ( even m listening that rite now..).. newayz movie was truly great... It talked about the racial confrontations.. i guess in states background... there is this teacher Miss G ( Swank)... She was given a class where students are quite tempting... don't listen... create mayhem every now nd then... the reason behind is mere insecurity... the blacks against white and vice versa... How can people discriminate on basis of colour... too bad... newayz Miss G handled that class quite well... and she dived into the actual stories and root cause behind all this... She brought a ray of life in their lives... She told them that they have every right to live... and they can also dream... ( Man! I have got a dream)... Fabulous work... too cool... nd somewhere I cried ( yeah boys do cry.. :D ) ... Awesome piece of work... The way the movie capture the circumstances ... the emotional and physical conditions of the marred people... Its really a heavy feeling that sank in my stomach somewhere in the movie mid... God!... Its such a realtime show... I can connect with all the students... I would rate the movie a 4/5... awesome piece .... must watch

But the movie and novel is not a point... the point is that " Why do they want me to see this movie and read that novel" ... I thot over that for quite 30 mins... and than finally deduced out of everything.... Its all about making difference to lives of others... Isn'it... Its about doing something for others... just think:
Have we done our role
Have we contributed to someones' life
Have we made a difference
Have I ever brought a ray of hope for ny1
Have I ever made a real use of the education that I got in my whole academia... I stood as a topper throughout... but have I done nything with that education...
Have I done something for a kid... whom I saw, barefoot, going to school... Yes I did that...

Its really about making difference to lives of others... I have got a dream... my dream is to be free

Wo raat kuch ajeeb thi!!

Don't take any false ideas [:D]... I m just referring to our farewell party.... I wrote on that prevs year as well... Its really n emotional stir for me... so m forced to write on the same... Well prevs year my perspective was of a junior who was seeing the adieu from his seniors... to see others going emotional on the mere thot of leavin others... to see other realize their mistakes and apologize for that... to see other promising each other that we will make it big in the real world... It was our turn now... I donno wat was my thot process when i wrote this prevs year.. but this year m sure it was just the anxious backflip in the stomach of the parting ways... It was just an emotional cusp... it was the pleasure of finally graduating... it was the heavy heart with which I will say Bye to all ma friends... Well let me start with the evenin.. I entered with a rather timid smile on ma face nd thot I was late... lucky me... i made it in time... Juniors haven't arrived yet... Swayed directly to Bar.. :D... got my usuals... pretty much conventional here... (Snacks not ready yet... wtf)... Ambience was really perfect ... we had a theque in middle... DJ behind it... the dazzling lights shinin above theque..... the moods were letting loose and the narcotics were gainin on... liquor was playin its violin nd everybody swaying to the tunes... fantastic... amazing.. m feelin like m reborn... no anxiety... no crap... Pehla Nasha pehla khumaar.... background song... nd we portrayed aamir in slow motions... creepy but funny... We had it all from Billo Raani to Kajraare.nd Ae Ganpat chal daaru la.. .. From Summer of 69 to Hips don't lie... but the aura was different when DJ chiku ( Chiku took over from the original DJ... although DJ was playin it.... but I will call it DJ Chiku )... So the aura was different when DJ Chiku played Papa kehte hain... The scene was a typical college melodrama... it appears so but duh! ... It was real... Everybody was like puttin his head on shoulders of other nd goin ..Meri nazaar se dekho to yaaro, ke meri manzil hai kahan.... Heat was really on by now... people started doin all the stupid things... hugging each other... sayin sorry... Kissing (puchi :D )... falling on each other... I almost hugged everyone ( Sorry agar koi reh gaya ho to.. loads sa hugs nd Jhappis... )... It was Seth's B'day yesterday, so that was celebrated with some nice sweet cream massage to seth... :D.. I mean these things that we do at parting times really appear to be silly but that's the way human emotions come out... Emotional hangovers will come to u at times when u won't be expectin them.. its just a human tendency to avoid them until they become so inevitable.. u will meet the alter-egos at such a point of time.. u will come to know what people are... how they love u... how they care for u... Its really something which lies beyond the veil... nd the mere thot of this goin off is so frightening... but ya its worth it... its so damn awesome... we all had some close talks with our friends for lifetime... the friends u make in ur college are ur friends for lifetime... after this u will make colleagues... family friends... but u make chums in college...

Well I rarely write poetries but I wanna dedicate something this time.. (don't laugh if its bad.. )

Some day in timeline
I will come back,
to see the ghat sunshine,
to see those bikin tracks,
to feel the crux of modes,
in those humble abodes,
to live those moments,
Some day in timeline
I will come back

Wish I had more time to walk those lonely roads,
time which I burnt in the pile of loads,
that anxiety nd nite outs,
the usual nd ocassional hideouts,
those long drives,
this feel nd those vibes,
to feel those moments,
Some day in timeline
I will come back

those teas and maggis,
tangy samosas and patties,
those canteen chit chat,
or a beer at ghat,
VT's coffee or Pahalwaan's Lassi,
or the food that was so Messy,
To savor those moments,
Some day in timeline
I will come back

To have those lectures where eyes used to fail,
and body timidly followin the trail,
the sink of papers nd joy of bail,
frustratin lectures killing the zeal,
Wish I wud have experienced pleasure beyond the veil,
To live those moments again,
Some day in timeline
I will come back

That flight of success, that low of crash,
rising again from every gash,
the learning we had, the better we get,
Those moments which left the eyes wet,
With every gush of wind the castles fall,
we rise again nd again with a promise to make it even more tall,
To grow once again,
Some day in time line
I will come back.

Well, donno whether its good or bad... its just something which I felt after having a great time.... thanx for everything guyz... I m really gonna miss

"I am really gonna miss this place, M gonna miss my college days
(Courtesy: Gaurav)"

Agar ye "mera" "humaara" hota to kitna acha hota!

This has been my experience lately... donno whether its correct or not ... that Parents have started to publicize their children excessively... there were time when an exceptional kid from a joint family used to gain appreciation from each nd all and even from the society... colony people etc... but over times the trends have changed I guess.... these days people are more like into " Main aur mere bache" ... I remember a close relative of mine sayin to me that " Mere bacho ne bhi MBA kiya hai... and distance learning se course karna to aur bhi mushkil hota hai... par bhai aajkal to valuee uski hai jo kamaata hai..." Now howz that... well I can cite the context... the sentence was targeted on two successful business ladies who are among their close relatives... How does that fit in?? This surprises me sometime... As per my view she shud have taken pride in the success of her two niece but then she was more jealous and dissatisfied... Sometime I really fail to understand the crux... Every parent is just ready to tell me that his/her child is studyin in a college in mumbai which is next to IIT Bombay or a top college in Pune or Bangalore.... and blv me that all kids are toppers these days... as my dad aptly said laughing " Colleges have eradicated the grade system ... so if there are twenty boys in class everyone is a topper... coz thts wat I hear from every colleague of mine.."... So my dad never mention my name... when somebody ask he just says ..." He is studyin in IT-BHU... final year chemical engg.."... nd how many people know IT-BHU... thus it save my ass from being a part of the hypo critic targets... Now there was a small talk... I was at the house of a very close relative of mine and "She".. some elderely lady... was doin only one thing... praisin his son... daughters... son in law... etc... That time I really came to know about their complete family tree (lol)... newayz... so even at their home... my dad asked me to get up and prepare tea for us... (I was really tired after a journey of aroun 24 hrs)... So I kinda showed reluctance for the same... She ranted immediately ... " Humaara "N" ko to bada mazaa aata hai in cheezon mein... wo to jath uth jaata aur chai banaata... aur wo sach mein badi achi chai banaata hai"... lol... nd that was a point of laugh riot for the next 15 days for which I stayed at my home... I mean cmmon gimme a break... "Arre isme bhi barabari"... Oh God! can't I be spared from all this nonsense... nd these society parties na... Arre yaar JEE nikaal ke paap kar diya kya... everytime u go there... khoob saari junta will be askin a lotsa question ( well I already narrated a typical Marriage party )... but as neeraj said...there is alwayz some relative IITian who has got a better rank than me... "Acha hai bhai... khoob khoob badhai..."....to ab main kya karoon... I don't give a f*** as to what he has done or not... or wat my immediate relative is doin... Wish we had that old culture in which kids of one are kids of all... where there was nothin like "Mera beta aur beti"...but somethin like "humaare bache"... Slowly and slowly people are growing more nd more self centered and this whole culture of togetherness is goin out of picture... I miss my bachpan really very much ... kyunki tab shaayad hum kuch bhi nahin the par hum sirf bache the.... par aaj kuch kuch hoke bhi hum wo nahin hain jo hum sabse jyaada hona chahte the...

The Stage goes cheaper....!! ( Skip this if u haven't seen this years' Filmfare)

I think for the first time I dont wanna do idhar udhar ki baate and straightly m comin to topic... and for all die hard shahrukh fans this post is goin to be utter disappointment... so plz don't read it any more if u r one... if u really wanna b a unbiased critic .. this post is just for u... ok to begin with... I was watchin this years Filmfare awards... and every year they are awaited coz they r the most authentic and most prestigious awards... this year also the awards were pretty much fair and the most deservin got the awards for their great work.... But there's one thin I m not able to understand... Is this whole thing is about The Bombay film industry ( I won't use Bollywood coz even if the Britannica has accepted that... it still reminds me of some copycat stuff from Hollywood.. ) newayz... my point is that this whole award thing is about bombay film industry or Its only about Mr Shahrukh Khan and his supporters or his so called group in film fraternity... The presentation was so ridiculous this year with cheap Gay jokes and strong sarcastic remarks on Aamir Khan, Hritik Roshan, Bachhans, Akshay etc... It was just ridiculous... I admire Shahrukh Khan of his acting talents but this bloody stuff on a national television broadcast is utterly disgusting... Saying Bhaand to Akshay.... Bastards to Film Critics etc... these are just a part of his pathetic sense of humour... The decorum of a King is likes of Amitabh who resides in such a great humbleness nd dignity... No wonder they weren't available for this year's show... All those who belong to Their group are praised like hell... Deepika Padukone... I mean cmmon u hav seen OSO... tell me a single guy who wasn't ashamed of his pathetic decision to even watch OSO... music was fabulous but overall it was just crap... sheer crap... nd u know that... now don't give me stats... I know them... I know Farah Khan nd Shahrukh hav promoted their movie really well with a fabulous promotion campaign... What was happening with Himesh Reshamiya... I mean its OK if he is a nasal singer... but to embarrass him like that... the kings of today shouldn't forgot that Himesh has came a long way thru and he is really a talented man... I mean who am I to say that he is talented... Man! talent speaks for itself... The stage this year was so cheap with Shahrukh and Saif propagating so much of malignity and sarcasm all along the course of the event... The most disgusting of all was the NA-REAL Awards... fk off.. ( yes I know I m using this word for the first time in my blog... ) but to this sense of national award ceremony ... I just have this word.. Its not about Shahrukh or Saif! ...... Aamir, Hritik nd Bachhan fans when totaled will make a baby out of shahrukh's nd Saif put together... what a bloody disaster... The organizers should be ashamed of this pathetic sense of presentation... Deepika's Show was welcomed with so great words and how about Himesh... His show was greeted by two filmstars with fingers on their nose... wat the fuck is this?? Deepika is just a new kid on the board.. with no xceptional work in OSO.. ( well in my personal opinion OSO was a total disaster... leave the music apart).. nd Himesh.. well we all know... A single celluloid flop will put deepika out of super stardom .. ( I hope she does well ) ... but I think industry has forgotten to treat veterans of film industry... Arre .. leave apart film fraternity... Shahrukh asked the senior person from Elder Pharmaceuticals to give all the shares of the company in the name of Deepika... thts ridiculous.. Comments on Kunal Kohli coz he dont make movies with Shahrukh... ( He took Hritik for his frst flick nd then his thrd was with Aamir )... Raju Hirani.. Sajid Kapoor... nd yeah bout Ranbir Kapoor... that sanwariya flick in towels showed total lack of serenity and dignity... Cmmon Shahrukh u r a superstar... u don't need to do this... this cheap tantrums won't give u any good in ur fans' eyes.. Though I am not a die hard Shahrukh fan but I m n ardent admirer of his ... nd being one of his fan I m sheerly disappointed... and I m feelin short of word to describe the pathetic sense of humour of organizers... :(